So as I am starting to write this piece at 6pm on a Sunday evening, I’m drinking a cup of coffee as I didn’t get to nap today. My bestie who now lives in New York came back home for a visit just yesterday and we spent a few hours hanging out and chatting and eating like gals do when they haven’t seen each other in ages. Otherwise, There’s so much to catch up on, I hardly even know where to start to be honest.
So my last post was my random sporadic post on the introduction of the fall season and some thoughts that were on my mind. Alot has happened since then. And I mean alot. From my personal life to my professional life to the changes I need to make for the upcoming year that is 2019. I’m hoping I can write most of this before 90 day Fiance starts in an hour or so. Yes, you read that right. Don’t judge me.
So I decided to leave my old job and I now work in the financial industry yet again. I honestly thought going back wouldn’t be challenging for me at all as I managed to survive seven whole years in it and when I actually put the work in, I can do it effortlessly. About three days into my training, that old feeling started creeping in again and it really didn’t make me feel good at all. I manage to complete the training but there’s still this lingering feeling of dissatisfaction on my end. Don’t get me wrong, the people I’ve met thus far at this new job have been really personable, accommodating and sweet if I can even say that. It’s just the field I’ve come to despise and I know this now.
Coming to this realization, I know I need to make some changes AGAIN and I really have no regrets doing so. I always remember reading an article that stated that the place you work and the actual work you do shouldn’t be an emotional burden to you because you are at your place of employment for the majority of your days and that is super important. I’m on a mission to find my best job fit and no matter how long it takes I will get there. I know I will.
When to comes to matters of the heart, I don’t really say much here but what I can say is that this year I found myself in an emotional tailspin relationship-wise. I ended a relationship earlier this year with someone I’ve known for quite some time and I’ve managed to meet someone that captures my heart in a way I never knew was possible. What’s weird is that if you had asked me at the beginning of the year if I saw my year end looking like this, I would have probably would have laughed at you so frigging hard. It all came out of left field but I’m embracing every second of it. I don’t know where my new person and I will end up but I do know I’ve taken a slower approach this time around and I am not making myself oblivious to certain red flags as I have in the past. It feels good all around so far so let’s see what happens.
With the new year right around the bend, I’ve decided not to make any resolutions. Every year I make one or two and I never fulfil them entirely. So with that said, I’m just gonna go with the flow and live life as it comes. I hope everyone manages to have a decent Christmas with their loved ones and a happy, blessed and productive 2019.
Until next time. Xoxo.